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musiclover16

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hi,first of all i just want to say I appreciate your music even though I may not understand what all of it means and you're my favorite(almost only) christian artist that i listen to. I just want to ask you if you would please keep me in your prayers.I'm tired of crying. I don't enjoy life like i should. I put my self down all the time and so do others. I have no friends,you know how that feels?being all alone,that hurts.I just feel like a loser,i have such a boring personality.I wonder sometimes if i was just put here to be a failure. I actually hate who I am and that is an awful thing not to even love youself(it's the worst kind of hate). I feel as though I am nothing because I can't do anything. I'm not as smart as I want to be or as pretty as I want to be.I feel as though I was cursed with this pessimist way of thinking and depression.I'm totally opposite from my sister-cheerful outgoing and positive. I feel hopeless and helpless. Everyday is just another day,it's not all that great but it's better than being dead burning for eternity in hell because i have not given myself to God. I used to be a christian but i backslid, maybe it was because I was just a kid and i didn't understand what they would preach to me about(but i still loved church somehow,now whenever my mom says i have to go by myself i always end up lying and skipping it.)and was impatient feeling he never answered my prayers.i didn't try to build a relationship.I can't refrain from this way of thinking that i will never be someone,no one important. that life will always just pass me by,i'm just getting by. nothing more. I want to be a musician,yes i want to have  a life. i have hopes and dreams.i want to play piano,guitar,and violin. but i'm empty,i have nothing to write about at all and doubt that i'll ever be any good and if people would even like me.i need to believe in myself. I need love,but from me first before the world. I know that this joy and love can only come from God,the love that I need. The world's love can't compare to God's unconditional. I know I need him to come into my life but i'm such a fool,i won't go. and for what reason? I have nothing to lose. I know it's only Satan's wish that i stay captured in his grip and forever blinded. God end this seemingly ceaseless sadness. This is not my wish. I know I must sound like a pathetic depressed girl but it's what I'm willing to do to reach out for help. I am weak and I need strength to carry on. Dan,if you could be so sweet as to pray for me,that would be deeply appreciated. To ask God to transform into something beautiful(your song).I thank you so much that you care so much about your fans and talk to us and hear us out.You're an amazing person and God bless you for all that you do. My wish of forever contentment to you.

JarsofClayfanatic

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 I will be praying for you throughout the week. I pray that you will find confidence in yourself and that the Lord will reveal himself to you. I also pray that you will have an overflowing amount of joy and that you will be blessed in your talents. Remember... God loves you, and so do we! 

patty

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I prayed that you would be freed from whatever is holding you back from God and all his plans for you.  They are false voices that are telling you these negative things.  You are loved and gifted.
musiclover16

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wow,thank u all.that's so nice.

JarsofClayfanatic

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You are so welcome! Just tell us if you need anything.

missrenee

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cierria,

wow.  what can i say?  your post EXACTLY matches one i'd make, if i had the guts that you have.  my issue is i don't feel deserving of prayer because it is MY problem and i have to deal with it.  but, you've given my courage -- that doesn't sound defeatist to me!   you've also inspired others to seek peer and professional help with your step forward.  today was a hard day for me, until i read your note.  keep your head up and pray daily; you might be surprised! and keep up with your talented work (i wanna learn piano and guitar, too) and maybe we can inspire each other.
 
tell you what: you pray for me and i'll pray for you.   we both deserve it!
 
renee


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musiclover16

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glad i could help

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